Well .. this is how 2012 started for me ..

What can you do when your whole world is falling apart...
Let's start with basics...
You country is falling apart because two stupid sides can't find a way to get together and fix what has been broken for years. The outcome: people are dying, starving, and signs of a civil war are being witnessed.
Your work is falling apart : the country is trying to make her way out of a huge recession that is being applied to by the other countries , job opportunities are also affected by the events that you feel that whatever you do (or not do in such cases) won't help anyone here .. You already do hate what you do because you weren't a big fan of what you have been studying for 6 years in collage and other 2 years in practice... It doesn't inspire you the way it should. .and you're always looking for alternative but the bigger problem is you need that paycheck at the end of the month... And now this is gone as well...!
Your family is falling apart... And I’m not here neglecting the fact that it has been like that for almost your whole life... But now, after the illnesses, financial, and domestic problems hitting like a thunderstorm ... Family life doesn't sound a healthy environment you need to stick around it, because it will be “the only source of energy “ that actually sucks the energy out, until you stop feeling .. And just become numb... Inside out...
Your insecurity, personal deep issues keep you from moving forward... You enjoy hanging out with the bathroom floor, your room floor... or any floor because they all seem the only solid thing that you can hang on to, it’s the only shoulder that you might be offered... and that your fear of the world will always make you wishing and sobbing for the life that you lived in your head... The fantasies become your real prison that you can never run away from... or live without... Plus, this insecurity thing is the main reason for not falling or being able to be in a long term relationship... Or any type of relationship for no matter what... (Let’s not even bring the word LOVE to the table)...
After all, you don’t have a choice of NOT being here... you long for inspiration, love, confidence and motivations. Ambition & fear are your curses... and you’re totally burned out...

Welcome 2012...